My Real Self, You Idiot!

You Idiot! Say what your true self 
Wants to say! 
It's being forced out, and you're getting closer to you're dreams. 
You idiot! Bring out 
Your true self, don't hide it. 

Oh yeah! 

Right now.

A few years ago I came across this anime (Japanese animation/cartoon) called Shugo Chara! (In which the song above is also the ending theme to the anime as well).

The heroine of the story Amu Hinamori, is a student at Seiyo Elementary. At first glance, her classmates refer to her as "cool and spicy" and rumors speculate about her personal life. However, her real personality is that of a very shy girl who has trouble showing her true personality. One night, Amu wishes for the courage to show her "would-be" self, and the next morning finds three brightly colored eggs — red, blue, and green — in her bed. These eggs hatch into three Guardian Characters: Ran, Miki, and Su. The Guardian Characters aid Amu in discovering who she truly is and help fulfill Amu's dreams. Amu's life becomes much more complex as she struggles to deal with her "would-be" selves and the Seiyo Elementary's Guardians, who each have a Guardian Character of their own. Later on, they recruit Amu as the "Joker" to search for X Eggs and X Characters, the corrupted forms of people's dreams, so the Guardians can purify their dreams.

Yes, it is more-or-less a childish show. 

However, although it seems that way, the theme was deep: express your true personality; try not to hide your true self; as well as follow your dreams and future goals, and accomplish them. 

It does seem like a lot for just a childish show, right? It's very similar to what we're learning right now in college: our future, our personality, our identity, and our dreams being our choice because we want to and not because of anything else for the most part.

I wanted to make a point that since recently my posts have been focusing on personality and my future, I felt like this would be a perfect connection between it.

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We’re Made of... What?

Sugar, spice, and everything nice. With a touch of chemical X. That’s what created the Powerpuff Girls.

If that’s what they’re made of, what about you?

Our Bayan community had an art project based on identity– Mirror Me Art Project. The objective was to add on to the mirror frame things that represent you. What are our interests? What is our background? What is our future?

Who are we?

Considering our main focus within these past few weeks have been identity, and mostly discussion about it, it was time to show it visually by having this mini art project; a relaxing day where all the bayanis get together and just be creative. It seems that everyone had an idea of how to create their piece.

What about me?
... I found it a bit more difficult than I expected.

Besides the artistic factor, however, I was asking myself, “What actually makes me?”
It’s a question I constantly ask myself.

I always found myself as a boring person, I don’t see anything interesting about me. Even if I did, I always think that I’m bragging if I say any “decent qualities” about me. Is it really? Most likely not, but it’s just how I am. Whenever I think about who I am, I always think the same things over and over again: a young girl who is most likely a year younger than everyone because she got promoted, yet that doesn't make too much of a difference because you’re on their same level; a daughter with a Chinese and Mexican background; someone who likes math; not the typical “average girl” and actually like “boy-ish” things like Yu-Gi-Oh!; and someone who likes to go on the computer daily. There’s nothing much about my future as of now, and my only good hobbies are probably drawing, dancing, and figure skating.

... It’s not really a lot, compared to other people. I shouldn't compare, but... it’s true.

Even as of now, I still have issues with what to add to the picture, but I don’t know. I’d love to put a lot on this project but... during times like these, I really don’t know who I am.

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We're SDKFM!

And when people look at us at a first glance, they wonder "What the hell are those people doing...?"
It's not until a few seconds later, when the play button is pressed, people start having a general idea of who we are.

All of us have a hobby, whether it's sports, gaming, arts, etc. Whatever the reason is, we enjoy it, don't we? All of us like a certain genre of music, right? Whether it's R&B, rap, hip-hop, pop, or anything else, we can't help but listen to it all day.

As for me, my personal hobby is to dance; I love dancing do music.

I love dancing to Asian-Pop, specifically K-pop (Korean pop).

The San Diego K-Pop Flashmob (SDKFM) is a group where people who love K-pop can come together and dance out in public after learning a mix for the season. The group always welcomes new members; after all, the more who love K-pop, the more we'll be able to spread the love of Korean pop culture in a fun manner.

I joined the group a week before college started, invited by a friend at a dance meet up. Just days before my first day attendance at the practice session, I was already thinking about wanting to join a flashmob thanks to this video:

My wish came true just a week later-- I was overly ecstatic to become part of something fun! Ever since I joined, I practiced every Saturday with the rest of the group from 2-7 p.m. for a six minute mix. 

On October 6th, our flashmob went public out at Balboa Park. 

I was incredibly nervous right before! My heart was pounding and I was really worried that I might forgot the dances, even though I practiced everyday. I just get nervous too easily.

However, the moment I joined in the mob, I was at ease. What I thought was going to happen was the opposite; my mind was set to just dance and have fun, and the feeling of nervousness went away. I was having fun and just doing my part. Finally, our hard work has been paid off. However, this isn't the end: we still have more to do! At least for this season, we're planning to perform a few more times before we take a break.

Overall, I'm very proud to be part of this community, and I really do look forward to continue dancing alongside everyone. Fighting! SDKFM!

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